Maggie's Farm

While I wish it was something far more open about survival longer than expectations (which anything is possible, however unlikely), I got some interesting information.  One person shared a book in comments - thank you!  I have ordered it.  

To me, it's a winner.  Neurosurgeons who know patients with limited times and low expectations and how to handle it.  I consider that a blessing.

Oddly, I received a call early today.  From a bit of a distant friend of a friend from Cincinnati.  My friend had lived there before having to move to California (where she hates it now and blames Gavin Newsom as an absolute horrific holder of an office that somehow keeps winning and having press supporting his absolute horror, leading her to leave).  That oddness of California aside, my friend introduced us to her friends in Cincinnati.  While my son attended college in Miami, Ohio, I often had rooms in Cincinnati and would meet them locally for great times.  They were wonderful people.

One thing I have is 6 weeks off.  No work.  But I have learned a few things.  

I'd like to thank one commenter who shared a book lead for me to order it  I have not read it yet.  I have, over the past few days, read a few articles about my specific issue.  It is, indeed, a strange one.  15 months, not 18 (which my brain keeps telling me) is the average period left for non-methylated versions of Glio Blastoma.   Naturally that's an average.  I have heard 18 and longer for a few people.  Oddly it is not frightening at all, nor is it saddening.  I don't know why.  I did feel bad playing with my little dog today, as she wakes up for a bit a small wrestle with me each morning.  I did feel a bit sad because I've lost two previous dogs, and I'm afraid I'll pass before my current one.  That said, I do look forward to seeing them all again.

I read the news this AM.  Quite a bit about politics and the Fed.  Nikki Haley is seeing a relatively "larger" level of voting, but she is not winning at all, really (except DC).  One article points out that her voting is in states which allow Democrats to vote on non-Democratic votes.  However, she will likely end her ballots after Super Tuesday.   A few Democrats, noting Biden's ultimately declining opportunities are hoping for alternatives to Trump, at which point Biden may beat Nikki.  Or at least they feel Nikki is not as "bad" as Trump.  While I favor none of the current political choices, I'd definitely say she'd be a mild improvement over Biden, but still hardly supportable, though she was when she worked under Trump.  I felt bad for her when she jumped ship after 2020.

The Fed has a massive problem growing.  Really at least two at this point.  First, wages are still growing faster than inflation.  Which does not mean inflation will fall.  In fact, the bigger issue is the massive Jan 2024 growth (most in about 2 years) that nobody who is a "professional" was predicting (I had, mainly because it was overdue).  The Fed is planning to reduce rates.  That's a bad idea as inflation becomes a bit more troublesome.  They should have had at least one more increase several months ago - that may have helped reduce inflation further without too much trouble.  Sadly, they are pushing for lower rates for political Biden/Democrat support.  A terrible idea.  I had feared a potential decline in inflation if they had pushed too far and too fast.  But they did less and slower.  Not a bad idea, but they did not go far enough.  Anyone with a basic understanding would know this already.

Interestingly, as the chemo and radiation has kicked in, I'm sleeping well still (lucky) and my interests have increased.  Some things (like economics) had dropped off but for some reason I've been reading more lately and I do not know why.  LOL but that's a good.  I've done a ton of Roman History reading - it is rather reminding of how truly awful Democats are if you mix and match behaviors of misleading leaders and activists in the past with those in the current era.  I've long felt it would come to play, and it has, though in a significantly different way than I'd originally expected.  Biden, in particular, has moved far beyond the earlier eras in Rome I was comparing to (I thought Sulla vs Marius was likely - I have long since been proven Biden is moving several hundred years PAST that era with more authoritarian attempts and growth of government overspending).  He is, in fact, rather frightening to me.

Anyway, I'm heading out to radiation yet again and hoping to find a massage to get the muscles feeling better.  Hopefully soon.  Hoped to be back in the gym, but felt off on Monday and Tuesday but getting back to feeling better now. 

3/4, Monday, was full of a ton of news which is beginning to show how small portions of the Republicans, but mostly Democrats, are failing massively.  SCOTUS eliminated almost all the anti-Trump ballot attempts - and the vote was 9-0, though some Democrats made a few key points.  Democrats pushing for that, at the state level, failed.  A certain troll seemed to say it was perfectly "legal" when we all knew it wasn't.  Once more a silly attempt by this flawed idiot drawing attention to useless information sources and flawed politicians shifting laws to pursue their personal idiocy goals.

Also noted, massive flaws by Hunter Biden.  Which most of us have knwon about for a long time.  But it continues to be hidden by politicians and the FBI which was assigned as a "friendly source" by Democrats (2 former members of the FBI are friends of mine and have complained of this nonsense since they left 6 years ago).  Non-FBI people will claim the FBI is always trying to protect legally.  This simply isn't true.  And more evidence continues to indicate their path of trying to support Demorats is flawing more and more.

A final note is that more information is coming out that many Jan 6 people who were found "guilty" may see more of this removed.  It's a matter of time.  Some of them certainly do deserve some guilt - let's be open and honest that several did some pretty bad behaviors.  Most have not.  So most of the ones found guilty are a joke of politicians exceeding their value.  Demcorats and a few pro-Democrat Republicans who not only hid information, but destroyed quite a bit to protect themselves.  I've known MANY people who went there on Jan 6.  Several were called to be potentially found 'guilty' but managed to twist out with good lawyers.  Many others have not had good lawyers and faced lawsuits against them.

Stuff is slowly improving, though.  Democrats look more and more dangerous rather than helpful.

It has been a long week, but a lot occurred.

There have been at least 10 calls or meetings with my doctors and learned several issues.  It isn't that doctors withhold information, but sometimes trials and treatments are described certain ways to push for particular outcomes.  In my particular situation, there are, literally, very few of great benefit.  As a result, one we had originally signed up for early, we quickly dropped out of taking part as a member.  We learned a lot about no outcomes at all for my particular issue.  We also learned about significant reduced health as part of it and a switch in my chemo drugs - which have significantly lower results.  So we dropped out and switched to the original chemo for sllightly better near term results.  We shall see.

I also had to attend a speech therapist from the oncologists themselves.  I took several tests and ran several case studies for an hour and a half.  I found my math, history and speaking skills were better than my graduate studies.  I also found my ability to remember music, movies and certain names of known actors or singers to be sufficiently less - but also that was common among people my age.  Another test, which required my naming several word categories within a minute to be well done - except for one.  Words starting with the letter "M" and no names, did well for 40 seconds and stalled as one word dropped out of my head and I was dragging behind to spell it out and remember it.  This identified a very high area to help improve my mentality where I have stalled.  That said, she asked many business and corporate questions which were not stalled or slow at all.  She was rather shocked by this in media as I exposed several concerns with journalists I'd had issues with - and they were backed up in her data, as well as my ability to describe a lawsuit I had closed with a previous employer, as well as my description of several previous depositions which I'd taken part of and my ability to not only remember them (though dates I doubt I could provide) I did know what was covered.

Sorry, been extremely busy and traveling this past week.  Many visits to my doctors and updates on starting my chemo and radiation tonight and tomorrow.  Hoping for some extensions from benefits.  The reason I am adding this was an hour with my Pastor.  I'll write more about that meeting.  However, we spoke about 1 Samuel 8, politics (and my specific reason for leaving masses due to political statements often misguided due to not speaking about 1 Samuel 8, and he admitted he was behind on it) and the fact I've written versions of this 3 times.  Once in college for a class that earned me zero grades.  Once in grad school which led to a shift in a former leftist set of professors who often misstated Biblical versions of political views.  And the third was in 2011 here on Maggie's.  Enjoy and feel free to comment.  It will be my 5th writing (since I sent this and some updates) to all my friends recently).

The first political systems, from an institutional standpoint, were monarchies.  Monarchs either considered themselves gods, chosen by 'the gods', or "Chosen by God".  In almost every sense, the political system was tied somehow to the spiritual beliefs of the nation.  

During a college course on Democracy, my professor spent the better part of an hour and a half discussing the implications of this concept.  He pointed out that God Himself chose Israel's first king, and approved of their choosing a king.  I immediately raised my hand and asked "But God didn't want Israel to have a king, did He?  He considered Himself their king and allowed them to have Judges which acted as their spiritual and moral guides on earth."