We are a commune of inquiring, skeptical, politically centrist, capitalist, anglophile, traditionalist New England Yankee humans, humanoids, and animals with many interests beyond and above politics. Each of us has had a high-school education (or GED), but all had ADD so didn't pay attention very well, especially the dogs. Each one of us does "try my best to be just like I am," and none of us enjoys working for others, including for Maggie, from whom we receive neither a nickel nor a dime. Freedom from nags, cranks, government, do-gooders, control-freaks and idiots is all that we ask for.
I have hunted moose, bear, caribou and deer many times with some success. Great fun, good eats, but mixed feeling. I discovered what I really enjoyed was getting out there. Flying in to remote areas and hiking and enjoying the views and experience. The hunt was good but carried it's own limiting factors. It was all more fun once the pressure and the requirements of hunting were removed. Just my 2 cents.
That was your problem. You should not be hunting in a way that puts pressure on yourself. Pressure to live up to other people's accomplishments or expectations, or to outperform them. People get weirdly competitive about hunting and fishing in unhealthy ways, particularly deer hunting. I know people who put all kinds of pressure on themselves during deer season and enjoy it less as a result. After deer season they often enjoy the unpressured pleasure of small game hunting. Pressure is bad for the participant and bad for the sport. I firmly believe that most people who break game laws by such acts as shooting from vehicles or night shooting are driven by a need to prove to others that they are better hunters than they really are. They cannot seem to face the scorn of coming back empty handed and therefore cheat to maintain the great hunter image at all costs.