Maggie's Farm

My dad spent his entire career in banking, and would probably agree with the author's sentiments wholeheartedly. I think it reflects the feelings and attitudes of those in other professions/jobs as well. It certainly pertains to my current situation. I can especially identify with the part about not caring.

The problem is that although I am technically in charge of financial operations for a $125 million dollar municipal utility, I am still considered a mid-level manager. In other words, I have an extremely important position without any real authority.

I am for the most part ignored, and have virtually no contact with my superiors. I have been employed for five years now, and in that time have yet to meet with or have an in-depth discussion on any subject with the general manager. He only calls me when he needs something, which is rare.

In an average week I may actually do only two hours worth of work. To most it would appear that I am the quintessential slacker. But the truth is that I delegate well, and my department is extremely efficient and well managed.

To be honest, this has created an ethical and spiritual dilemma for me. I have asked to take on more work, but to no avail. The inherent risk is that my superiors will discover the truth of my situation, and will most likely react by firing me instead of helping alleviate the problem.

As the author mentioned, I have tried to suggest ideas, but it goes nowhere. So, I just sit at my desk hour upon hour, in endless boredom.

The bottom line is that my moral is essentially non-existent. In reality, I am just existing. I am a caring and dedicated employee, yet I have nothing to care about or be dedicated to. The irony is that whenever I discuss this with my family, they just shrug and say that I have it made. Who wouldn't want a job where they had little or nothing to do?

It is indeed a government job. Unfortunately, at the present time I am not in a position to demand much of anything. It is essentially a culture of fear, one that does not allow for open discussion and debate. Dissenting opinions or suggestions from subordinates is not looked upon favorably. I literally have no voice or input whatsoever, which is amazing due to the size of our operation. I

t is extremely frustrating, because I have a great deal of knowledge and experience to offer. It may be hard for some to believe, but my achievements have far eclipsed my job description. As I mentioned previously, the situation is nearly impossible to justify in an ethical or spiritual sense. My inclination is to quit and move on to something more challenging. But I also have concern for my staff, whom I believe will face dire consequences if I were to leave.

On the other hand, my faith tells me that I not being very grateful. After sending the first commentary, I realized that others have it much worse than I do. Therefore, who am I to complain? As my dad says, he would have done anything to have had my job.

I apologize for going on a rant here, but the topic just struck a nerve.

Thank you for your kindness and words of wisdom Patina. I felt extremely sheepish after posting my replies last evening. The good news is that it made me recognize how truly blessed I am, and that I should be thankful to God for having a job, as there are many who do not. As a CPA, I have also had the opportunity to consult with many small businesses, and therefore understand the demands and challenges it brings.