We are a commune of inquiring, skeptical, politically centrist, capitalist, anglophile, traditionalist New England Yankee humans, humanoids, and animals with many interests beyond and above politics. Each of us has had a high-school education (or GED), but all had ADD so didn't pay attention very well, especially the dogs. Each one of us does "try my best to be just like I am," and none of us enjoys working for others, including for Maggie, from whom we receive neither a nickel nor a dime. Freedom from nags, cranks, government, do-gooders, control-freaks and idiots is all that we ask for.
I have been so depressed that I have considered killing myself many times. I decided 30 years ago that I could never safely own a firearm because I knew what I would do with it someday. Even so, I have come close to buying a gun. A few years ago, I had extremely severe, treatment-resistant depression—an epoch more than an episode—that lasted several years and steadily worsened despite multiple medicines and weekly visits to my psychiatrist. Eventually, I did go shopping for a pistol. With great difficulty, I chose not to buy it and committed myself to the hospital instead.
I also have suffered in the past, with a couple of honest tries at offing myself (well, I FELT I honestly tried at the time). Psych drugs always made it worse for me, personality changes and even darker thoughts...in a desperate bid to change I went through as many natural supplements as I could find to no avail.
Magnesium surprised me, and continues to surprise. What a wonderful feeling.
Anyone else tried it? Oh, and probiotics! Recent articles about gut bacteria and mental health connections make me glad I listened to my hippy neighbor all those years ago.
Well, that was helpful, thanks. I actually shot my pillow once while loading up to do my head. The bang was loud and I didn't. Scared my kids.
Been mostly good ever since!
The secret is to find happy. I have a great woman, I drink a lot, I smile and laugh and joke and have a "screw it" attitude. Annoys some, cracks up others. my dreams are good, my conscience clear. Magnesium, too. And probiotics.
Sounds flaky, I know. But for me, it all works so good.